Ups and Downs

i have been in love with this Kendall Payne song "Ups and Downs" for ages now! how can i even explain it? if i've had a rough day, i will blast this on my way home from work and it just soothes me. 

you know, i had a friend once who would always put a song on after a hard day--and it went, "every little thing's gonna be alright, every little thing is gonna be alright.." this is the same idea for me! now, granted, i have many favorite songs but this one is close to the top for many reasons! i encourage you to read the lyrics and listen! 



All that I've found through the ups and downs
Is that I'd have it no other way
Life in the raw is both fragile and strong
It's both lovely and ugly the same


Who can attest that when they're at their best
Oh their worst is still crouching close behind
It's coming to peace with the darkness in me
That allows the true light to shine inside


So let it go, for we are still far from home
Though you try and try to escape
To live and to love will always be dangerous
But it's better than playing it safe


We are composed of a symphony of notes
Every life is as music to His ears
I'll play my melody be it haunting be it sweet
Unashamed of what anyone might hear


So when the load breaks your back and your will
You must still keep your heart in the game
To live and to love will always be dangerous
But it's better than playing it safe


So let it go, when it don't feel like home
When inside is your only escape
To live and to love will always be dangerous
But would you want it any other way?

Diving in

the past three months, i can't seem to get away from this theme of diving in. i believe God speaks to me in themes like this. it comes in all sorts of ways (dreams, movies, people)which makes this adventure so much fun! He always keeps me on my toes. 

it began with this fabulous quote from a movie called shadowlands about c.s.lewis. 

"I learned how to dive the same summer I learned I was a Christian. It's the easiest thing in the world. You don't have to do anything. All you have to do is stop doing something. You have to learn to stop trying to preserve yourself. Once you let yourself go head first, without worrying about where you are going to land, it works..."